Another Way

She watched the video of the Retriever being trained to helped the handicapped. From birth on the trainer worked with this little one! It was amazing to see how quickly the dog learned.

However, the animal had other ideas of what he was good for! The owner had to retrain the dog when she found out he liked chasing birds! Watching the video Mary began to cry as she realized she had tried to force herself into a role. It wasn't working. As much as she tried to be something she wasn't the more depressed she became. What was worse was the thought of all that education that would go to waste. Yet she had to relent of her recent decision to get involved in something. Each time she thought of it a dread came to her heart. There was a check on her spirit.

It was a New Year and a new day. She must let go of this old vision of herself. She held on to it too long now and it was not bearing any good fruit; just the many rotten apples of depression each time she tried to be what she wasn't meant to do! This video brought it all to light.
Mary looked to the window and the grey sky. Somewhere God was listening and watching. "God", she said, "help me to see what you see. You have given me many gifts. Help me to see where you want me to use my gifts. Help me to be what will make you and me happy and will be in line with the gifts you have given me. Lord, I keep trying to be something I am not. Whatver I am to be help me to see it and know it and follow your will. I let go of what I think I should be. I give it all to you and ask you to show me, through your word and way, what direction to take. Like that trainer, Lord, you see my potential. Guide me to use my talents for your glory."
Mary was determined she was going to stop trying to live up to a dream that was dead and which she had been trying to fulfil. She resolved in her heart to focus on what God would show her and become whatever that was. She sat back, took a deep breath and sighed a big sigh. She was free to "surf" if need be! Or fly as high as the sky.